It's beyond me, the weight of the world

• Spent the whole day at Al's, wish he could be in Singapore more ):
• Loved my brothers today, they were surprisingly nice. but I've a nagging suspicion that they just don't want to generate bad karma for exams.
• Got a bunch of flowers, then realised I hate flowers, so threw them away
• drama drama drama
• angst angst angst
• ignored all texts and felt like a bitch
• wished i could wrap all my friends up like spun sugar so they won't be sad and do horrible things to themselves
• Rushed to school just to hand in a lab report which was probably gibberish idk too tired to notice

...exciting college life...

OK CONCLUSION:
LIFE AS A TEENAGER WAS MORE INTERESTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sobs until someone feeds me chocolate*

and what on earth does quixotic mean... but hey I like esoteric words.

~more than a year later~

hi I missed having a proper blog. And all these old posts made me so nostalgic. Everything still feels the same, yet somehow different. I guess I've grown up ):

Maybe I'll post more here. I hope so.

Blah. So many things to say, but I'm not sure how to get it all out anymore. I miss being open and carefree.

Trying to skype with someone in the library is impossible. but i miss my dad ): 60°C there pure evil ): ):

Ran into zn (almost literally) yesterday and she! smiled! at! me! as gorgeous as ever. Then the euphoria died when I went for the first lecture in my entire uni life. Never thought stats could get more boring than in jc but I was wrong, maybe cos the lecturer's not Pukpukpuk. Now I just want to stay at home and sleep and pon all my lectures and secretly swallow my textbooks and top the level during exams with my innate brilliance anyway.

because my beloved country says, we should Live our dreams.

ha ha.

Stop complaining, some archi kids got their first assignment LAST thurs, before school started. Gee.



I want my class back.

Sometimes I don't know what's happening, as if I'm just the indifferent passerby watching my own life saunter by. Maybe the world can stop spinning for a while and let us get a rest. It feels weird to say I'm now a uni student, or working, when I feel mostly like a kid. Will rather be a kid.

Why do I feel so tired before school officially starts? ):

Felt the urge to blog after reading Lei's '04 posts but normal human beings like me are just not capable of such detailed recounts. But now I know what to read when i'm depressed. ...the red badge ppls started bouncing too :D

I know lessons haven't started but can't wait for exams to be over then it's off to whoknowswhat cool trips AND Georgetown with sqdmates (:

It's cooler to say Georgetown cos ppl will think we're going to US but nah, it's the Penang one.

Please let me get what I want, I'm seriously scared that I won't be bothered to study if end up with shitty modules.

sigh.

Leonard: Is that your dad?
Wolowitz: If she grows any more hair on her face, yes.

I haven't laid hands on any proper books for ages, so I'm stuck with Newsweek... and starting to get addicted :D

trying to squeeze meetups with friends before life becomes hectic again. Yesterday with Pi THE NEWLY FEMININE was awesomely funny (: and have been talking so much to sqdmates lately, life's good (: (:

Me and my stupid pride
I'm sittin' here, alone.
I'm going through the photographs,
Staring at the phone.
I keep going back over
Things we both said
Touché

(I miss my new Russian crush!)

LUCKY BASTARD. ok apparently dear Mr. Yang's rich enough to hire a private plane but can't afford to msg everyone so I'm obliged to help spread his message -.-

First, HE IS NOT IN AFGHANISTAN so we can stop worrying that he'll be shot to pieces.

Lastly, right now he is on a coach to Barcelona where the aforementioned plane is waiting for him. He smugly told me that instead of a business trip he gets to go on a tour across Europe. We'll kill him accordingly after 3rd May. -Newsflash from Europe over-

My right thumnail got infected and the thumb's like swollen to almost twice the size. Then I burnt the other thumb with an iron. I never realized that your hands are so useless without thumbs!!! ): ): ): the upside is I get to be treated like a princess haha.

guilty but how to stop?

So now Yang's stuck in Germany with no way back unless he takes 12398798 trains/ships all the way to somewhere in the Middle East where he can MAYBE get a plane back D: which means you're gonna miss the whole thing we so painstakingly planned friend ):

If you can't hold babies in your arms, hold them in your heart. I cried and cried, its so freakin sad.

But things are going smoothly overall, even managed to hail a cab in less than the usual arm-flailing half an hour. Part A's over, 14 days left!